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Scott Colin Anderson LOVES Jo-Hanna Ho Wai Yann

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its pretty pathetic T_T making me sorta sad n all.. sigh.. could get more into it but i rather not bore u guys with depressing talk.. sigh..

a proud day ^^

my sis is in the papers!!!!! they had a full page write up on her.. wow...
i'm so proud i cried >.<



there it is ^^ SO PROUD!!!!!!! click on the pic to go to the full readable version ^^

rare friends ^^

have u ever met someone who's uncommonly similar to u? who likes most of the things u like, who thinks almost like u do, who freakishly says n does things at the same / almost the same time u do...

my friend n i first got to know each other.. a year or two back, if i'm not mistaken.. we were just friends with the occasional hi n bye n net slaps :P its not until recently that we started to chat n get to know each other more.. the more i got to know him, the more we realised that essentially, we're pretty similar.. though sometimes his mind is rather warped in certain areas (>:D ahahha!! told u i'm eeeeeebil, but then u ARE warped :P). guess i wont go into details to protect SOMEONE's privacy... *innocent*

all in all.. its been great since i met him ^^ we're rarely not chatting together :P its like i cant resist not spending as much time as possible with him ^^ too dependant.. yeah i guess soo T_T i was never good at keeping my distance with people anyway :P

lastly.. to my dear dear baby boy (>:D), i wanna thank u for ur friendship, ur precious company, ur love, ur kindness, ur sweetness, ur honesty and ur faith in me. thanks for baring ur soul to me, for sharing ur life with me, and thank u for sharing n lighting up my life. it means more to me than u can possibly imagine. ^^ thank u for u <3 <3

updates updates..

sigh i know.. i RARELY blog.. laziness.. what can i say.. i'll try to give an update on my life since i got back from uni....

since being back, i've been mainly on the computer (now who doesnt know that :P). besides that, i've been to one camp, few trips to kl, shopping a lot ><, went sushi with my siblings... met up with some relatives i have not seen before, or for a long time.... all in all i guess its a pretty good hol ^^

the most fulfilling thing i've done all through this few months is being able to freely communicate with old friends and really get to know some of them more than i did before ^^ i've made some fast friends, close ones at that and i feel really blessed to know each n every one of them. they colour my world ^^

here are some pics since i got back ^^


part of the group of ppl who went to kl for COPA IBA 


friends i havent seen in a long while ^^ 


one of the cutie cats that my mom's currently taking care of.. 


my bro n sis (who are twins) and i at sushi king ^^ 


relatives and cousins from my mom's side.. her cousins.. 

judged and condemned..

why? why do people have to judge u? do i have to follow what people say even though i dont think its right just to ACT like u're good? why do we have to put up fake masks? why do we have to show what we must be even though we arent like that? why do we need to be so hypocritical?

i'm sick of this.. sick of being judged and being "advised" to be something i'm not. so what if i'm a christian and not perfect? am i supposed to be a hypocrite and ACT perfect? why cant i just be me? flaws and all.. if God accepts me for who i am, why should i act for people to accept who i'm acting as?

i'm sick of being accused for things i didnt do.. i've been growing up with that all my life. i thought that phase was over, now other people who have more power to hurt me do it..

why? what should i do? am i to be myself, flaws and all or should i be what ppl think i should be.. perfect, sinless.. "christian"

moving on ?

when a good chapter in ur life ends bad, what do u do? how do u end the chapter? leave it hanging? give it a better ending? what do i do? so far, i think the best is to just let go, whatever happens happens, i'm powerless to stop anything, no matter how much i work to save it... i just hope this will never describe my marriage in the future...

what are best friends for? to have for a while, to lost it drastically, only to find another? what is the use of having a best friend if it will only end up in the "once was" category? why want to get another when it'll only end up in hurts? 2 times in my life.. the circle goes on n on.. should i allow a 3rd? is it my fault? is it my nature to destroy whatever i hold dearest? or is it because people dont think i'm worth the trouble?

how do u deal with losing a cherished relationship? my answer, let go n give it all to Him. today marks sort of a new chapter in the area of my friendships, the old has gone, the new has come.

do i detach myself in life? can i do it? to keep things away from my heart so i dont get hurt.. is it a way to live? can i feel alive like that?


praise be to God that what once was a tool to bring me crashing to the depths of the earth has no hold on me now.. the only thing that is left is wishfulness and hope for the future. thanks be to God for other friends who've stood with me in my times of need and in my times of joy. through them, i am truly blessed ^^