this subject came up as a result of different thoughts and ponderings and so i think its a good time i share my own dreams. i dont think i've shared this on my blog yet.

at this point of time, i have two major dreams (as in things i wanna do), and some minor ones..

dream 1 : my life ambition

which is to be a wife and mother.. full time.

in this day and age especially, where family bonds are not strong and the world is getting worse and worse, i think there is a need for me to be dedicated full time to my family. i do not want to be a wife who is tired out at the end of the day and has no strength or mood to serve and care for her husband. i do not want to be a mother who goes to work and leaves her kids with a maid / babysitter or someone else to train them and bring them up. a child's upbringing is of the utmost important and i think its absolutely vital that i am ALWAYS there to care and train my children.

i was blessed that both my parents were always at home. both my mom and dad worked from home. i remember that whenever my parents were not around, i would get excited because it was such a rare occurance.. but its very assuring having my parents always being around and easily available (i prob wouldnt say that while i was growing up, but now i realize what a blessing it was). i learned a great deal from my parents and life at home is something i now wish i had. it was a blessed time with great memories and fun with my parents and my siblings. i want my family to be like that too, and i want my children to have that same experience. and i want my children brought up well, which means i cannot leave the responsibility of teaching n training them to other people. and i want my husband to have the best help mate he can, to help him achieve the call and destiny that God has upon his life.

dream 2 : home ministry (?)

a few yrs back, probably in my uni yrs, i had a dream. i think it was a day dream but its something i want to do, if God enables and provides. in my original dream, i saw my home, filled with children, friends of my children and also children from the neighbourhood who were from broken families or who were left alone because both parents were busy working. i saw them finding a place they could call home, a place of love and belonging, where they would find the love of a family like God intended, and a place of refuge for them from the world. my family would love these kids as if they were part of the family (and in this i think it would be a good training for my own kids to learn to be selfless as well as loving and how to minister God's love to others).

i've since considered also making my home a refuge to the mothers living around me. single mothers, needy mothers from broken families or even other full time mothers could come and help or find help. it would be a ministry to the mothers as well as to the children. well, the men can come too if my husband is around, i think.. havent thought that part out yet.

this is no easy feat. for starters, i'd need to fulfill dream no 1. then i'd need a house big enough for a lot of ppl, with a big backyard that children could play in comfortably. i'd also need a husband who is supportive of this ministry and also full of love for people, especially children. and of course if there's gonna be so many women around, my husband MUST be the faithful kind.

there are a lot of obstacles to this dream. this is something i cannot accomplish alone. its something i want to do, but if God does not enable and supply, i wont be able to. small scale of course can do at home, but not as it was in the dream.

these are the 2 major dreams in my life at the moment. i believe they are given by God. the first dream is something i've known in my heart of hearts for a few years now. growing up, i've never thought abt or wanted to be a full time wife n mother, but somehow one day it was just there, i dont even know how, i just know. just like how i just knew i was to go to form 6 and not college. the other was born out of the first dream.

about the others.. little dreams (or wishes, if u'd like to call it that) that i have:

1. send my parents on a holiday, to Israel. i think my dad has long wanted to go there. both my parents work too much and rest too little.

2. buy my dad a lot of gadgets. he loves technology.

3. meet a few dear friends around the world

4. see revival in the youth (and be part of it too of course)

5. see my girls grow into great women of God